Step By Step, Day By Day.

So I decided that the reason that I didn't do as well as I had expected on the exam to be that I did not put forth the effort needed to excel. I basically got too overconfident based on my results from last year and did not study as much nor as hard. Reading shit over and over is not enough. I need to really focus and learn as I read and not count on reading it again to learn the shit. So that's what I am going to do. I have consulted with various people in my class whom I believe are at the top of their game, particularly the number one ranked student, Jameson, who I have been previously in love with, but now we are just terribly good amigos. So Jameson told me that for pathology he takes notes on Robbins and reads Goljan then goes through the notes and last does questions. I had been doing all this until towards the end when I convinced myself that reading the powerpoints would be sufficient to do well. I was wrong. That will only get you to barely pass, as I did, but I am not going for just passing. I am well capable of above passing. In microbiology, Jameson basically advised to keep on going through the notes. Although this is what I did, I half-assed it. I merely read the notes, and if I did not understand something I depended on the fact that I was going to read it again anyway so I could just learn it then. When you have forty lectures for one class, on one test, it is nearly impossible to "just read" it over and over enough so that you know it. You may get like 3 or 4 times through if your lucky. That may be enough but only if you are getting it on the first read, which I wasn't. However, I am going to veer away from something that Jameson does in that I am going to not go to lecture. It is a waste of time and our professors do not know how to teach. Others may think differently but I don't. I can go through the lectures faster and more efficiently by listening to Tegrity. Most of the time in lecture I lose track of what is going on and by the time I try to figure it out I have ended up just missing more of the lecture. If not that, then I just fall asleep, and the whole lecture was just a waste of my time. So ya know what the fuck ever. On Tegrity I can pause and rewind and speed up, allowing me to really understand what the lecturer is talking about, thus preventing me wasting an entire day just sitting in lecture. Amazing time-saver. I can get a good basis on what I need to know and have more time to study it. I have talked to others who have confirmed the greatness of Tegrity School. And I did it for the last two blocks of the previous semester and did remarkably better than when I had gone to lecture. I just thought new year, might as well listen to what this years professors are bringing to the table which is evidently not enough. Nevertheless, I am going to have to majorly step up my game on this block. I refuse to be one of those who merely pass, let alone not pass. I am better than that and I know I can do it. So now all I need to do is do it.