I need a boyfriend. Well I don't really need anything but I want a boyfriend. Actually I don't know if I really want one either. I mean I definitely want someone to sleep with, not necessarily like fuck, but like that will just come over and spend the night. I sleep so much better with someone in the bed with me. I am a cuddler and I enjoy other cuddlers. This may sound extremely gay or cliche, which I don't doubt that it does, but there is just nothing like falling asleep in someones arms or with your arms around someone. The warmth and the pressure just does work for me. I mean, and I absolutely love giving hugs. Every time I meet someone I feel compelled to give them a hug. And if they seem open-minded then usually I just go for it. Hugs are so much more personable. You really have to open yourself up for a hug. I feel like you lose your inhibitions and puts you in such a vulnerable state. You can tell how comfortable a person is with themselves and with others just from their hug. So I hug all my friends. Even the super straight ones. No one gets by without a hug.
This is me and Griffin. He is the only gay person I truly do not get annoyed by. I mean there are a few others that I can stand and do love, but Griffin no matter what doesn't get on my nerves. Most are just a disgrace to the kind. That may be mean to say, but it's true. I don't get them. Them like they are different from me. Well, yes, they are different. I've never really considered myself as gay, I would just rather be with a boy. I may have a few mannerisms that are a little on the feminine side. But that just comes from being raised by a group of women and without a father. Actually, it has nothing to do with my dad, that is just how I act. I tend to be a little over dramatic. I am just like my mother. Anyways, I feel more like myself around straight people than I do gay people, except for Griffin. I guess it's because we have known each other for so long or what. I love him and he loves me but we are not lovers. I feel like everyone sweats Griffin though. Like all these gays just adore him. He is adorable. But most gays are lame. I mean it's just whatev. Griffin comes home to me.
